Damn Grandma

Now i knew this would happen some time down the road i had just hoped it would have been a little farther. I was doing so well and then Crazy Grandma called me down for dinner and watched me while i ate every single thing on my plate! I mean come on!! I love my grandma to pieces but that was overkill. She didn't even use a small plate she used ones of those huge ones, (the ones Tex-Mex restaurants use, the ones that if filled could probably feed an entire family for a week if it was any where else but America) and whenever i put my fork down she gave me a look. A look that said "eat the whole thing damnit or i'll shove it down your throat" kind of look. Apparently Grandma bear got fang!!

Just when i thought it was over, she brings out dessert. Kill me now! I'm already hungry enough to eat about anything, and she's had to bring out an ice box cake, my favorite fucking dessert. That B! So i did something I'm not proud of. I ate a piece,.... or two,... or three.. Dammit all to hell this is going to be such a bitch in the morning when i step on that scale!! And tomorrow's Friday which means I'm going to the circus (Yes, I do go to the Circus Thank you very much) maybe I'll just skip lunch tomorrow, and I'll tell Crazy Grandma that the food at the circus is way too greasy to even be considered food so hopefully i can go the entire day without eating a thing. Sounds like a plan, Grandma watch out cause Maddi like a puma, and you ain't gonna get this Fat ass to eat!
Ok so i just quoted Hannah Montana, i think that i should go nappy by!!
Night, laters

Introducing Sassymouth and Her New Best Friend

Alright, i going to just get this out of the way this is a pro Ana blog. I'm going to admit that I'm new to this whole eating disorder thing, i mean i have anorexic tendencies for a while now, and i had been trying to fight it, but I lost.
So this is my white flag waving, i give up, i give up food, i give up any respect i had for myself, I am completely and utterly spent, looks like Ana wins this time. I have been eating next to nothing for about two weeks now and I have already lost 6 pounds, at this rate I'll be a skinny bitch by summer! (note the sarcastic tone) Yay me *_*
Now I'm not encouraging others to be anorexic (because trust me it's not that fun) i just need something to take my mind off of food. Right now, I'm so hungry i could eat a McDonald's Big Mac (then not eat for an entire week) but I've already had two pieces of broccoli today and i feel like a big fat fattie.
That's another thing about me, being a new anorexic, i actually have no idea what I'm doing i mean i go on all these other pro Ana sites and everyone seems to know what their doing. They all have meal plans, the best excuses not to eat, tutorials of how to purge (thankfully for me it hasn't gotten to that yet), i thought anorexics just didn't eat at all i mean that's pretty much what I do, i only eat when my mom forces me to. I guess i still have a lot to learn about my new best friend Ana, i can't wait! *_*